You'll never know. 

Mamma Mia this Sunday. Sadly, it's the last night. But er, yeah, I'm still watching till the very end. Fangirl, duh. Anyway, I've been reading more and more tweets and conversations about this year's HS Prod especially about 'Red or Yellow' and I totally agree! 


I do know you've noticed the change of name, from The Eccentric Girl to Red or yellow?. Oh well, I'm so over the moon. And my player, is not really cooperating with me. It won't play One Direction's album nor any other media disks. Gah. I haven't finished Kafka yet but I'm about to. I wanna read ROOM next, though. This day is just really, great, no words can describe it honestly. Especially from that special person. So love-y dovey ko na. 


"I'll tell you something that I wish someone told me before-- go be brave." -Ms. Villegas 


I think, its time. Its the time that I should get out of the shell and be brave. And also, I reckon you should too.

asdfghjkl, OMG, super KV. Yes, I've been ranting that phrase and ranting about SOMEONE for the past hour till now. Oh gosh, the clubs were great. Believe me, we were screaming (c/o Cielo) when we went out the hall to Gate 1. SINAG: A High School Production didn't let us down! It was freaking amazing, awesome, everything. Gooooooooooo! I really wanted to watch the evening show but sadly, I can't.


At least I watched the first. And asdfghjkl, someone namen _______________ <3.
Probably weird but yeah. Miss Morados and Mister Galicia! OMG. OMG. Her voice is amazing. And to Vicky: You were so great, Maine! Victoria Amper (I forgot the numbers). To Patty: Buddy! I miss you na, thank you. You so great, and cutie! And Sho, FOREVER CUTIE! She's so great at dancing, swear. No arguments.


And...to that someone. Alam mo na yon.


That white car, someone was waiting and yet that person looked at me  and smiled but I didn't smile back. Sad. But I still like that person since May. Lol. Bye! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MISS GAGAOIN! (Her birthday's tomorrow.)


KUDOS! SamFil (Samahang Filipino) and Curtain Call gave me the bomb! HAHAHAHA. 

Hear, ye! Hear, ye! 
Okay, what a weird commotion but I'd like to confirm something:


MY TUMBLR HAS RESURRECTED. Yes, I've shut it down with various url/s. But I'm still thinking of a good, weird yet catchy url. Mind to help me?


If so, contact me. Either on my Tumblr or Twitter. Links are listed below (Wow, did I just make it sound like a real announcement or what?)


Tumblr: yellowred-k.tumblr.com
Twitter: @kateestores


Easy peasy so just freaking click on the follow button! 


If not, then don't. Who cares if you don't anyway. Lol, must be getting quite mean here. But yeah, for the second time...kbye.

Woo, congratulations to the Mind Quest 2012 'survivors', (Lola) Aira (MayFacebookWalangTwitter) and forever cutie Lizzie! You guys are the best. Kayo na matalino. Anyway, I'm still so wasted but I need to get ready for next week because it's hell week. But thanks to some people who always manage to make me smile and laugh. 


Mamma Mia this Sunday night, I'm ready. Make my week freaking great. This day isn't that eventful unlike the others but yeah, it's still fun. And the main highlight of my day is that I finally bought a physical copy of Haruki Murakami's Kafka on the Shore and a Panda bookmark. I just want the wallet so badly! Ate Ali has one ren, I feel so... never mind. 


Okay, probably the first time I'll say this: kbye.

Happy Valentines Day! 


I may not be in a relationship right now, but I have my valentines. My friends made the most of it. It doesn't matter if you have one to spend it love-y dovey but maybe just someone to spend it with genuine fun. Honestly, I didn't even thought that it would be this fun this year. Lirene's dare also started today, I have to be all girly until Thursday in which she will be tomboy-ish next week for three days too. Awesome. I received chocolates and gifts. Thank you! I came to a realization that someone loves and cares for me too. 


Mr. Javier substituted Mr. Capati, in which what made my day right. I mean he brings me and Vicky unwanted luck. Swear. Funny thing is that I went to get my book in the locker only to find out that I left my book at my Homeroom room, BUMMER. But--that made me laugh and not frown. I'd like to say, this is the only day so far that I didn't frown nor get bad vibes. Achievement! 


Going to Green Allon, I was greeted by Pam and her dog, Jerri. It's Jerri's birthday today! Happy fourth birthday, Jerri! I wanna hold your pups again, I miss Kanin and Bruno so much. Then there goes Lirene who makes my Tuesdays and Thursday worth it at times. The dare, is still going on. Believe me, while writing this I'm so girly. With the voice to my appearance and posture. Quite odd to have my voice a pitch higher. And Ate Ali went too, holding a bouquet, chocolates and Starbucks. She's so fun to be with, no arguments to that. Remembered 'I Like Your Hair', gosh, that song is so influential. And my gift to Teacher Dea, I made effort to it, a Yellow cartolina, half written it, and stopped with 'Kanin never happened.' And her Yellow playon pen! I have a green one. HAHAHAHA. Along the dare is that I also have to wear girly things. Look at Lirene's mantra bracelet with GROOVY that symbolized my continuation of the dare.

That's it. I had lotsa fun this Valentines, I hope you guys had too. Just cherish the moment you're spending it, either with or without the person you love. Don't worry, that person, if you haven't found yours yet, will come. 

YEAH BUDDY! Tiara gave the album to me, along with the baller and poster. Happy girl here. Been playing it over and over again kahit memorize ko lahat. Fangirl moment, hoha. =))

Okay, if One Direction comes to Manila...bring it on. "Now I'm climbing the walls, but you don't notice at all. That I'm going out of my mind, all day and all night." 

Okay, totally great day. The Mural was good? Oh well, it went out fine although I know we won't place nor win. The Photo Math? Bahala na sila, I just hope they did their best and chose their best judgement on what to use for the contest. Did I mention that I totally had a laugh with Teacher Dea and Cetta? Oh well...I did.


It's like we're the trio that just laughs things off in a good way and with a reason. Cetta's the witch, and me and Teacher Dea are......just people who laughs at her. LOL. Tomorrow is Valentine's Day, meaning, I don't have a date. Kidding, I have. My friends are my date/s. Dami diba? They just love me like that, lol. I'm still thinking of what to give to some people I care the most pero I'd be surely giving Vicky, Lirene, Teacher Dea and FF. HAHA. I'm just so giddy so you'll see lots of haha there. HAHAHA! See what I did there? Okay, so I totally went vain again the minute I got home. Why? I took my camera and started posing and for once, I had a photo I liked the most. THIS. 

You'll probably notice that its not my jacket because it's not mine, honestly. It's Vicky's. I like it though; it's so blue. Oh and my hair today, liked it! Because my hair is just so bipolar. Bummer. But yeah. I'll end this ranting. Bye, y'all. Oh and if you wanna see more of my antic updates, follow me on Twitter! @kateestores

Definitely no title for this entry. Words can't describe how I feel right now. I'm such a girl, no, not a girl, but a reprobate girl. It totally shrunk into me that everything will never last forever so I have to take every second of it count and live it. Granted that I'm not the perfect girl myself and family would want to be, my flaws overpowered me again. 


I mean, hello, waking up in the morning feeling like you can't get out of your bed because of the sour feeling of exhausted-ness. Totally not cool. But thank God for a glorious cup of milk from my mom, I was finally able to stand up and get ready for the day. Although I'm getting stressed because of our QUEST, which is supposed to be submitted by now, I managed. The Mural and Photo Math for Science and Math are both events in which I'm participating yet I have to give one up because of my schedule. Also, my Creative Long Test for Literature has been changed in a way. Just like with the characters, from Alyanna to Blair; Nicholae to Chance; and Mark to Nate. Everything is getting so surreal to me. Why is that though? One, my group hasn't submitted Quest yet when it was due last last week and I told them to work on it while I'll edit everything and yet they didn't do their task. Two, the contests are happening the same place and time. Three, I'm just stressing. Four, I still need to study. Well...er, yeah, that's it. 

To get myself in some what productive today, I went on to have my usual movie marathon with Anastasia, Alvin and the Chipmunks 2, Home Alone 2, Harry Potter on DVD and I Am Number Four and Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian. Oh, I have this big crush on Peter and Edmund, no offense to Prince Caspian because I swear, I don't find him attractive at all. No popcorns for me, though. I'm quite happy with the fact that I fulfilled my weekly habit to watch movies, old or new. It takes me back to where I really was and see the little girl who dreams to have her life to be just like a movie. And granted that someone asked me on Tumblr if my life was a movie, what movie will it be. Well, there's a lot of movies I love but Inception. I mean, if I can go to other people's dreams, men, I'd live everyday happy. 


Also, I've been reading this book by Haruki Murakami's Kafka on the Shore and believe me it's asdfghjkl AMAZING. Here's a quote from the book (hard to pick because everything was shot in the dark good):


“Beyond the edge of the world there’s a space where emptiness and substance neatly overlap, where past and future form a continuous, endless loop. And, hovering about, there are signs no one has ever read, chords no one has ever heard.” 


Oh and what's a weekend without a good play, right? I played my favorite indoor and outdoor game: Pictionary. One of the bests. But it's not the one with you having to draw but just act out with the photos. 

Playing this game really made me reminisce my time at Cebu. It was the first time I played it and had a blast with Kim, Anna and Toni. How I wish they'd be my cousins instead, I can totally relate to them than my real cousins. No offense. I'm being biased. One good laugh was that during the prayer service in their house in Leyte, we were upstairs and so loud that they had to go up and tell us to tone down. Great memories. I'd love to go back to that wonderful summer. One of the best summers, I must say. If ever they're reading this blog post, hey, I miss you guys and thank you for everything. Playing this game with my cousins is not as fun as I played it with them. They're just natural. 

Might as well, say goodbye now because I'm about to tear up. Add myself to send condolences to one of the best singers to exist, Whitney Houston. Woo, I just watched some band to sing Hey Jude, and it was so great. 

FunWalk and the Launch

Three words: Exhausted, fangirl and giddy. 


Yep. Those three words probably made the day. Fun Walk was fun although I had to go to the very front of my class to find my parents only to find out they ditched me and drifted off to another year level to talk with friends. Bummer. But still, waking up early today was kind of worth it. Two cups of freaking coffee in three in the morning and go to shower after. Yes, please. Added to that is that my classmates and friends were so fun. Although we're kind of ticked off with the fact that we couldn't let a touch to our beloved gadgets until we sign out and go out of the school premises. Quite hard, swear. Tiara, even had her sister, Sasha, maneuver over her phone. Oh, and the route, quite long but still worth it. Funny thing was that we laughed real hard when we saw our teacher by Banko Sentral and was leaning on the gates like a pro and smiling smugly, laugh-box moment. That is why exhausted is the perfect word for this.


Fangirl. Today's the album launch of One Direction's debut album, Up All Night. There was one in SM North for Astroplus and another for Odyssey which was held in SM Megamall. Both stores were packed with fans. I wasn't able to go because of some last minute issues but managed to buy another copy of their album thanks to Tiara. Oh and congratulations again, Tiara! She won some prizes at the launch and also met new directioner friends. She bought me the album along with the freebies. This girl is the best. Totally the one I can fangirl with about the boys. I was still upset by the ugly truth that I didn't get to go when I was supposed to and seeing they had loads of fun. But I'll make it up for it, be more dedicated (Okay, dedicated but focus more on my work). 


Giddy. Because I'm not the only one who has mantra bracelets! Yay, Lirene bought her own with attached to it 'GROOVY' while I had mine before (it was a gift) with PARADISE. Yep, Coldplay's Paradise and Kings of Leon's Use Somebody are my all time favorite songs. No doubt on that. 


All in all, this day was real bliss. New memories were made. Too bad I didn't had the chance to take photos. :( Okay, til then!

P Squared: Polaroid and Panda

As a writer, I think its mandatory to be criticized. But when you loved and had put your heart into the piece you're writing...criticism is not the best thing you'd ever want. Especially negative comments, they killed me. But I guess negative criticism is one of the best motivations to improve your writing. Not to be motivated because you wanted to top them and show off that you're better now but to prove to yourself that you can do so much better with your writing. Well, that realization hit me hard and long enough. 'Nuff said.


Okay, so last week, we presented our Novel Report for Literature. And can you believe it, we were four points short and we'd have a perfect mark. But aside from having a great story to analyze and rant about--my writing was improved. Especially when I wrote everything for the Written Report. My teacher complimented me for it and I was truly happy with the outcome. It's kind of hard for me to understand a story in a short period of time but thank God for the wit He gave me. Mrs. Ibarra, commented something about welcoming to the real world and that the understanding, introduction, everything (except for the theme) was good. Written very well. 


Oh and the story we reported was from "Catch A Falling Star" by Cristina Pantoja-Hidalgo, it's called, "The Woman in the Apple Green Dress". The story is quite controversial in some ways. 


And I practically had one of the best creative long tests ever for Lit, we had to write a story. Either true story or just fiction. The minute I was in front of a pen and paper, I started scribbling down ideas. I had this first heartbreak things, family issues and other mature things but I shrugged it off. I stopped thinking of it for like three days until yesterday that the story I wanted hit me. I was watching Glee, then there goes my favorite characters, Blaine, Santana and Quinn. Completely inspired to start writing because I need to pass it by Monday, I was thoroughly writing and writing. After an hour or two, four pages, eight columns, 1.5 spacing with the size of 11.5, Times New Roman. I had to cut it short because I was limited to four pages. Bummer. I called it Polaroid. I don't know why, but it was the title that came into my mind. Well, it's better than labelling my story...Panda. 


Here's a very very short excerpt:

     Walking down the hallway where everyone envies you is quite bizarre. They fear me. Once they see me with the same dress as they are, they would hide themselves and change. Every word that comes out from my mouth is law. Though the tough exterior in me, they don’t know who the lost little girl whose beneath the shade of regret and insecurity.

     “Hey, babe,” my boyfriend soothingly rubbed my arms up and down.

     “Hey. What’s up?” I turned around from my locker and faced him as my arms found its way to his neck and ruffled through his bleached blonde hair.

     He kept his hands to my waist and pulled me closer as he inched his face to mine. I placed a light peck on his lips before his hands went to my thighs. I poked his chest.

     “What was that for?” he squinted but moved his hands back to my waist. I fastened my jacket to cover my very exposed thighs from my cheerleading uniform. Once I looked up at him again, his face was certainly waiting for an answer. I giggled at his reaction and smiled warmly.

     “We’re in public. And besides, I can’t do this, not now at least.” I mumbled, turning my head to the other direction.

     He maneuvered his arms to my shoulder and hugged me tight. Suddenly, I felt safe. It wasn’t like any other people. I think this is the best year in my almost four years in this damn high school. I wanted to get out of this school. No not school, but this country. Everything about it just makes everything even more difficult for me.

     “We have to go, they’re waiting,” I didn’t really catch the other things he said, I wasn’t really listening before he got me out of my trance of that memory that I’ve been avoiding. 

Hoha. It sucks right. Last minute writing, I was very inspired though. 

Kind-of Chill Week

Chill Week, it is. This week was kind of a stress-free week. Why is that? Wednesday, I'm supposed to leave the campus by five but we had our Friday schedule so we we're out by four thirty or so; Thursday, half day (Service Awards); and Friday...because we're watching Mamma Mia! and no classes. The FunWalk is on Saturday, I have nothing against it but I'm just not really a morning person. No offense. 


Honestly, I'm typing this down and I've been listening to The Wanted's Glad You Came. And B-siding that is... Scotty Vanity's I Like Your Hair. Trust me, I've had that song booming my head for  WEEK. Thanks to Ate Ali for letting us know about it. 'I need more gel, my hair looks like hell.' Oh gosh, it's so influential. Someone let me hear other song and that is... I Should've Kissed You by oh-my-gosh-my-husbands One Direction. Ever since seeing them on X-Factor, I've been fangirling over them. My chill week will get more better because the album launch of their debut album, Up All Night, is on Saturday! Imma get another copy. 


I don't know why I'm posting why I'm so happy. 'Nuff said. Well aside from being happy all week long...I'm hating this damn writers block over the story I'm writing. I mean come on, there four chapters left and I couldn't write it right. Plus, I still had to go through my Lit story and some club exercises which I'm totally enjoying writing. My writing style, I reckon, had gone quite more mature than before...and became so negative in some ways. Why? Because I kept on writing about tragic stories. I remember the one I wrote during club, its about the WWI, their dad getting stabbed in the head and had him drowning in the tub with his own blood. Too...weird for me to write, I must say. 


Ate Ali kept me so confused this week. Swear, I don't know if she's the secretary or what. But I came to a conclusion that all the positions are hers. Hahaha, she's even trying for the SC. Lol. Look at what she said on Twitter, too.:

"Ako yung may hawak ng lahat ng officer position sa class........"


But all in all, she's good. Oh and if ever you're reading this, Ate Ali, MY COFFEE! Hahaha.


Lirene is such a girl. She's going to really need glasses. Oy, Lirene, mas okay na yung isa kaysa kay circle. Also, I've been getting so touched up and fangirling over things. One of which is that my Tumblr is filled with 'If it still hurts, you still care.' stuff like that. One wrap up for that is that, Tumblr is practically my life diary. And Pam also made my week with the GeoMety (yes, we spelled it like that because we're awesome) and GelaTo. 


Funny thing earlier at school is that I was almost freaking out because my schedule was so tight. I was joining this Mural for Science in which along with my other four classmates, I will be representing the class. Then there comes the Photo Math Contest in which me and Chesca are the heads for our group and I'm needed there. Now, I don't know what to do on Monday. Swear, because...the mural compet is until 11.30 and Math period is like third period. Totally freaking out. But I managed ren, kasi they'll do the photo shoot while I'll edit it. And this Monday, 1A will be leading the morning praise, oh gosh, we're in need of help. 


Okay. I'll stop ranting na because I don't know what to say. Til then my dear/s. CARPE DIEM! Mwaa. :))

LATE POST: Lakbay Aral and SEP Tutorial

The day before our Lakbay Aral I was so bored and down about it, honestly. Then the day came and I wasn't actually 'that' excited unlike my previous class trips before but something made my mind change and that is when we boarded the bus and everything ran to the flow.  My seatmate, Andie was on the aisle seat and I'm on my favorite spot inside a bus--window side, I just really love it when the vehicle is moving and you got to catch every glimpse of everything you're passing. It was one fact that I was really sad in the midst of my happiness during that day since 8 of us weren't inside the might bus five, Jonina, Patty, Chula and the other five were at bus six and I really love hanging out with my friends--especially laughing with Jonina on non-sense things. We watched "She's the Man" after the long debate on what we were going to watch and it was really a good laugh with my classmates just watching and laughing while eating. 


I felt so bad when I found out that my remaining eight classmates can't watch DVDs but they ran the bus during their duration of their stay and even quoted that they were the one who were supposed to be OP since they're surrounded by a class but turns out that class were the ones who felt out of place because of them. Fist bump! Anyway, we went to Aguinaldo Shrine in which I've been to for like 5 times already. Then to Mary Magdalene Church which was just an kilometer drive, I think. The church was fascinating knowing that the walls that were standing with the church was never touched--not once and is standing for 3 centuries. Then after all the buzz of our speaker who ranted about boring things and believe me we all got sleepy and you know what, me and my friend, Sabine were twirling our umbrellas and pretended that those were wands. But St. Mary Magdalene's relic was there too!


Knowing that it will take a long time for us to reach Paradizoo we continued watching She's the Man and really laughed our hearts out after that with Andie and Gerlie playing our famous games. It was a great great time! Paradizoo was really cool. The Tagaytay fresh air breeze brushing onto me was refreshing, truly refreshing. 

The 10 Things

Okay so I've read some requests from my Tumblr asks, sorry if I don't reply at times. But they wanted me to do a 10 Things About Me list because I deleted my 30 Things on my Twitter (@kateestores). I'm just posting this because they asked me, not really to rant about my self-absorbness. 


I'll start with 10 because 1 is too cliche. 


10. I don't consider third chances. Because two is enough for me, nonetheless, they should've learned the second I gave them a second chance.


9. Broadway Musicals are just so great. I don't imagine not going to a musical for a year at least listen to a song from it, because I might die. The first Broadway show I watched and still my favorite is West Side Story! I managed to have my friend record it for me and sent the video to me after. Mamma Mia! is love. And the fact that they're here, me and my family will be going to a show. Musicals, oh yes, I feel so complete. 


8. I don't like Pink that much but I allotted February just like every year, to be my Pink month. Swear, I have Pink stuff on everyday. Also, my bag's pink this month and so is my little notebook. 


7. I'm good at giving advices at any field but I can't seem to advice myself to not be insecure. Yes, I faced my insecurities but there's this pang of insecurity running through me. 


6. I don't really reckon myself as an 'okay' writer because I still learn and learn. Just like what Miss Villegas told us, this is the time to make mistakes and learn. I learn and improve my writing through harsh criticisms, swear. Someone once told me that my feature writing sucks, I smiled at her, thanked her, walked off and started scribbling ideas of a great feature. And look at me...last year, I became a Junior TG finalist. 


5. I'm so bipolar. There would be a time I'm flying in the cloud nine then at a snap of a finger, I'd be snapping at people who have no idea of what I'm going through. But the people who aid me always gets the it to make me calm and get me on the right track.


4. I don't like ugly penmanship. Once you show me or let me read someone's terrifying hand writing, I throw the piece of a paper into a corner and let's that person scribble down his/her name continuously. So...be warned.


3. Photography's my only hobby that I never became insecure with. Photography is my art; they never judged it because they will never know what's the reason behind it. 


2. I'm very much peeved with birds. I'm scared of them, I'm disgusted and everything in the line. That is also why, I don't play Angry Birds. Because it's not the birds that are getting angry, it's me. :P No offense. 


1. I always have this weekly DONTs. Just like two weeks ago, I haven't had Coke, at all. Ate Ali was teasing me about it. It's just that I always like to break my traditions.

Cold

Just don't blame. Everyone has their bad days, (or rather, weeks.) Well I had WEEK. Although some people cheered me up and brought me to cloud nine, I thanked them numerous times. Most of the time I was really cold to people, if I'm not laughing though, I really am cold to them. One moment I'm smiling and all then a minute or two, I'd be snapping out. Guess, that's life then. But I really am sorry though, a girl has to break sometime. I mean, stating the facts yesterday I had 3 consecutive long tests and 2 consecutive quizzes. 


Thursday, was actually one of the bests. I really thought Ate Jella, would ditch me. Don't blame me, I waited for like 10 minutes or so but thankfully Jonina, the deranged girl whom I really love because she's such a great friend, kept me company. But still, when Ate Jella walked through the hallway with her friend--I was relieved. Why? For the first time in the whole school year that was the only time we got to bond at school together because of our schedules. As we walked through the school's vicinity, she suddenly talked about 'the thing' I was supposed to tell her, eh, we were in the canteen. I shot her a very uh-oh face then she soon got it. I remember when I told her about it she was so shocked, she thought iba yung gusto ko then she was like 'don?! sa mukang yon may magkakagusto?' something like that I was giggling (wait, I don't know if its considered as a giggle or whatnot). Swear, but she promised she'll never get any deet spill out naman. Then when we reached my room na, I was kind of sad. My classmates were shocked, kasi only some knew I know her personally and some asked 'ate mo siya?'. But still that's not the point the point was that she made me happy and everything went great.


And there goes Green Allon. That place brings a lot. Although for like the whole week, Teacher Sam was the one who mentored me, I really had fun. Also, the 'kanin' team up is dying na, or does it? I was kind of peeved when one of my classmates knew about it when I didn't tell anyone, she was like 'KANIN.' I'm like, 'what?! how'd you know that.' I was kind of cold towards Teacher Dea, but I apologized already. Oh and bilog. Lirene made my week, real bliss with her, not a dull moment. When none of my friends understood me, she was there. Ready to kwento and I was there to listen and vice versa. In short, she's the best and she's a real friend. Oh and I've been thanking Ate Ali for telling us about 'I like your hair.' Up til now...it's stuck in my head. That place brings the best memories, too. 

Here's the link: http://youtu.be/qBDnHZNbjCg PSHYEAH.


Jonina made me laugh when I'm at my worst; Lirene listened and fangirled over our crushes; Ate Danica teased me; some friends fangirled with me over Darren Criss; Hannah and Diana went through our club antics; and my friends were there. 


Oh and I'd like to say this big gratitude to my friend for giving me mantra bracelets with:
Soar; Weird; and Inspire. We shall bond soon! You know who you are. 


I can't wait for the day I can bond with them soon.